Monday, December 1, 2008

Vouloir, c'est pouvoir
"Vouloir, c'est pouvoir" that's french for "where there's a will there's a way".. so long since i've updated my blog.. maybe i'm too busy.. or maybe i find it a hassle to maintain it. doesn't matter though cos i have put my mind to it and i shall persevere.

it has been a long semester for me.. and i didn't know what actually happened during those days except.. well.. night falls and day rises- a vicious cycle. very, very vicious. how cruel can time be? well.. exams came before i had the chance to prepare ha..

so now it's the holidays for me.. and i'm so desperate to make money.. i'll sell my butt when circumstances do allow such acts and the government is blind.. so much to pay for! bills, internet, insurance, overseas trips.. these piled onto me and weighed me down, almost crushing me.. i shall relate to one incident that happened last week..

Lili (NTU buddy) : hey kangtai joining us go down orchard after the last days of exams?
Me : er i don't think i'll be going.. i've got facial afterwards.
Lili: wat?! u purposely arrange it on that day cos u dun wanna c someone rite?
Me: not really.. partially.. er ha.. i've really got facial and i can't attend it.. i try to meet u guys after tat..

After the facial

Lili: are u comin?
Me: (after giving alot of excuses) can i say the truth? i spent my money on facial and i can't meet u guys cos i dun have much money le..

u see? the horrors of not having enough money.. i kinda regretted when i cancelled all my tuition and cut off my main source of income.. now wat i have to do is to earn back money.. i'm currently doing invigilating for ACCA.. 40 bucks per session so i tink it's kinda ok.. i got 3 tuitions this month and i plan to save up as much money as possible.. it's so so hard.. today i stood for 7 hours doing invigilation.. when i walked back my legs were so numb i can't feel anything when they were moving.. so day 1 : 40 bucks earn.. $960 more to go..

i made a bet with junxian.. each of us have to save up a certain target asap.. 1000 for me, 1500 for him.. loser gets punished and each of us have thought of cruel ways to torture each other. kinda sadist but i tink it's slightly motivating. i'm resumin my car lessons this month so i expect to get the license next year.

time to come up with new year resolutions! doesn't really work for me but it's a guideline. i dunno whether it's possible or impossible for me.

1) undergo a 16 week training program and look like him. (i shall gym and swim on alternate days starting today Dec 1)

- posted by kanery at 11:39:00 PM