Thursday, August 20, 2009

Head Hurts
Insomnia setting in, is that my muse calling out to me, or is it just my head?

I'm the only one wide awake while the rest became the sleeping dead.

Trying to make each sentence rhyme, yet not sure of the reason why.

I'm just trying to avoid more problems and let each day pass by.

Music is now paying a visit to my head, but there's no one home.

Where has my mind gone at this hour instead of staying in its cozy dome?

I need time but she has abandoned me,

While a mist slowly forms over her figure till I can no longer see.

Stuck in the past and not moving on.

I tried my best to go forward but i got scorned.

Family and friends lend a helping hand without realising that their hands are clad with thorns.

I had no choice but to injure myself while holding on.

Maybe I just need a hug, no comforting words at all, no sound.

Just the action perhaps, to calm me down.

To yearn for such things is slowly turning into a sin,

For it might better to act strong instead of creating a din.

I'm not an exhibitionist, showing how I feel to get some attention.

Just want to confide, scream and let it out of the system.

Do you know when does my tiredness show?

But to those who know ,what do you really know?
- posted by kanery at 1:52:00 AM

Time For Myself
Last week was pretty well spent.. Hmm.. could say the same for my money as well- not really considered "well spent", it's more of like a "all spent"..

Went to Batam with NTU gang,



then Genting with Gold Kili colleagues,


paintball the following day with RELC buddies and



clubbing at night with another group of happening friends..

One whole week for myself and I enjoyed it pretty much, although at times I wish that J is around but I think that is pretty much impossible.

Well.. went out today again for some shopping and didn't buy anything much.. but while doing my window shopping I realised that Singapore is a screwed up country haha..

Imagine.. Studying in Primary School, then moving on to Secondary School, followed by JC, NS then army.. How old am I now? How much longer can I stay young? It is kinda frustrating to know that we spend our prime years leading such a monotonous lifestyle and in the end when we really want to enjoy the "fruits of our labour", we are already 30 or even older.. Our youth is just wasted.

I tried to talk to my aunt about it.. Well.. let's just say that she is another one who is already brainwashed by Singapore.

Meanwhile.. I do have some plans.. But I'll do things slowly.. It's about time for me to have more control over my life. J, ha sometimes I do need a bit of listening ear.

I do have some regrets but what's the point of talking about that? Haha it's already over isn't it?
- posted by kanery at 11:02:00 PM